Showing posts from March, 2007

Decisions of craziness

So we've decided to stop stressing, to stop the chlomid, and to just let things happen. We're happier that way, our marriage is happier that way, and our life is a much better quality which is what is truly important.

I am at peace with this decision. We actually made this decision at the beginning of February but I wasn't sure that I could handle the not fighting for what I want. I know now that it was the best decision we could have ever made, for ourselves, for our marriage, and for our future child.

Some people can handle the stress and the hormones without doing more harm to themselves, I'm not one of those people and I was forcing myself into a place that was unnatural for me, a place that I didn't know existed and it was ugly. It was mornings yelling at my husband because he hadn't knocked me up and once again another month was wasted. I can't believe that I ever felt that any time was wasted in this life. That isn't me. I was on the lowest …