Raise your hand if you watch The Biggest Loser? I love that show! I love watching people change their lives and workout from the comfort of my couch while eating m&ms.
If you don't watch, I'll fill you in a little bit. It's a weight loss competition for teams of two and they are voted off based on their weightloss percentage. This season there is a mother daughter team that is really hard core. They are the green team, Miggy and Migdalia. Those that watch are shaking their heads in agreement right now. They have been given a lot of grief because they are strong hispanic women that don't show emotion. Jillian got in Migdalia (the daughters) face last week yelling at her to feel some emotion, to cry, that crying wasn't weak. I tend to agree that feeling emotions is a sign of strength and that holding them in isn't always best. That is until I learned this week that Migdalia's husband was scheduled to leave for Afghanistan WHILE she was at the ranch (if she made it 5 more weeks) and then I realized that girl was just trying to keep her shit together.
Only another military spouse can understand what she was feeling. In the last weeks leading up to a deployment you are raw, you just want to crawl in a hole with your family and make time stand still. I cannot imagine being on a momentous weight loss journey AND possibly missing my husband leaving...knowing that he might not come back. It was such a huge sacrifice that she made and I believe that she did for her mom as much as she did it for herself. The only time she's smiled since the first week was getting to call home.
I know first hand that a deployment makes you raw, that if you don't make yourself stone that you might cry at something seemingly ridiculous and nobody wants to do that on national television. Some day I'll share with you about how I turned into a puddle of blubbering nasty and got tons of looks at the repair shop.
So, I doubt Migdalia will read this, but I don't think she is an emotionless wreck, I think she is a wonderfully selfless, strong woman, that was afraid that if she allowed herself to cry a little that she might just lose her shit all over that ranch.