I know I've been laying low in the blog world for a while now. It's not that I'm not interested in your lives or in telling you about mine, it's just that if something requires more than 3 brain cells for me to read...I just can't spare them.
I have so much I want to say, so much I want to write, but the words just aren't there. I miss Chris, I miss Granny, I miss being able to express what I feel. So much has happened in the past couple of weeks, I just don't know where to begin, or how to start without acknowledging what has happened.
We recently lost a Marine in our unit. It wasn't during a deployment, but a car accident here in the states. I can't decide if that makes it more tragic or not. Somehow it seems like they should be safe here, it's in the war zone where they are in danger, not on the drive home from work. It's just another reminder of how life can change in an instant. If you like, you can go read my friends post about the memorial. I wasn't in town for the memorial because on Sunday my Granny passed away, 3 weeks shy of her 80th birthday.
My Granny was and is a very special person in my life. I spent every week-day in the summer with her, we would have sleep-overs, she and Grandaddy would take me to the lake. I have so many memories of my time with her and it hurts my heart for her to be gone. I wish Madelyn had the opportunity to get to know her the way I did, a chance to build her own special memories. Luckily there are a lot of pictures and stories to tell so I can share with Madelyn the love that Granny had for family and friends. Granny pulled in everyone as family, I called so many people "aunt" growing up that I had to have an actual conversation to find out who was blood related and not. It didn't matter, because I loved them as family. It is that love that I want to pass along to Madelyn, the acceptance of all people, the love of those who aren't necessarily family, because love is what makes the world a better place and I believe that my Granny did indeed make the world a better place.
Now, Madelyn and I are in Asheville where it is humid, hot, and polleny. We are visiting family and having a fun time, but everything is overshadowed by the fact that we won't be going to visit Granny. I know that is why God had a plan in his infinite wisdom that we return later this summer (I bought the tickets Sunday night before I knew about Granny).
Please bear with me, I hope to be out blog hopping and commenting again soon...as soon as I have a few brain cells to apply to it, otherwise my comments might be more "phhhhtttt!" than you care to read. :)